im cpt. jack sparrow...and my compass dont work anymorei lost my purpose, my goal
and i dun even noe when i lost it...
was walking to school... when i tot that i have not been doing what ever i wan.... i have not blindly pursue my desires and push other people aside... i have not put myself first as often as i did before... (which is good bec it was one of my new year resolutions.. not sure for which years).... but making myself happy was one of my goals.... which i am (still able) able to do something about it.. something i could take charge of... so now... wat is my goal? to make others happy? i can do that... its just not v satisfing... am i selfish? i mean... life is short and am i going to let it be spent on frivolous things... so what are the meaningful things? when i am lying on my death bed... what will i look back at... and noe, truly noe that i have accomplished whatever i was meant to do and feel good and proud about it.... that i could tell god that i have done wat she asked of me....
i am so lost... so confused.... i just wan to noe that i am here and by being myself, im doing my purpose.... because if god's purpose for us is to for us to live our lives freely... then i will be accomplishing my purpose...
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